What kind of person wants that? A lonely one, in a codependent and abusive relationship with the Lord of Hell.
"I know." In as much as he can possibly know. He even (ironically) knows that he can't possibly know which. He definitely can't understand it. "I'm not doing it for you. I'd rather die. Always kind of figured I'd do that fighting whatever the biggest bad guy around was. Looks like that's not an option." Totally different sacrifice. Harder, worse, terrifying and he hates it.
In part because... it's giving in to Asmodeus. In part because it's giving in person. In part because it's going to make Zerxus feel guilty. He just... "It'll be some kind of okay. For more people than it's not, anyway." He's an optimist. (He's forcing optimism).
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"I know." In as much as he can possibly know. He even (ironically) knows that he can't possibly know which. He definitely can't understand it. "I'm not doing it for you. I'd rather die. Always kind of figured I'd do that fighting whatever the biggest bad guy around was. Looks like that's not an option." Totally different sacrifice. Harder, worse, terrifying and he hates it.
In part because... it's giving in to Asmodeus. In part because it's giving in person. In part because it's going to make Zerxus feel guilty. He just... "It'll be some kind of okay. For more people than it's not, anyway." He's an optimist. (He's forcing optimism).